Wednesday, January 14, 2009

i hate myself):

Hola guys!
Hmm.. yesterday.. didn't went anywhere.. just go to school and do homework and read my textbooks after i came back from school.. woah, i'm very hardworking eh? HAHA!
oh yeah.. so today.. is a late day for school.. i mean go to school late yo.. and i like that! hehe(:
Set my alarm clock 7.25am and woke up 7.30am ;D lazy Yo.
Need to reach school before 8.40am or 8.50am. Yahoo!
I love going to school late ;D
Thenthen met River the preety queen and went school with her & my sister. My everyday's routine actually. Hoho. Huhu.
After that assemble in the hall and then the first period of the day was PE and luckily, my teacher gave my illness form to my PE teacher in charge, i think, Mr Leong.
My first impression of him when he took my class as PE was that, i thought he was not that funny type yo. I hope you guys understand butbutbut he is funny! He scold pupils but he is making jokes at the same time. Lol.
And yea then they do PE.. i sat alone.. aiyoo.. like last time..
Hahah but i'm useddd to it baby ;d
Then after that recess time and then lessons starts again yeah.
Untill the end of school 2pm i went straight backkk home and put my bag and of course took my handphone and wallet because i need to go to novena i mean to KKH as i've gottt a doctor appt and blood test. Blood test must be one hour earlier yo. So i hurried like hell. And uh, i didn't ate at school. I'm starvinggg like hell when i took the mrt alone. =.=
Neverminddd i'm useddd to it lah! All i'm usedd uh! Hahah!
But then what made me so irritated was..
today was the longest ever appt i had with my doctor as there was this one doctor from US came to singapore and had a talkkk with me and my mom and dad to explain more about my illness and i was like uhhhhhhhh, when we talkkkkk more it costes moreeee! And i don't want that to happen! I pity my parents! They useddd allot of money just bcse of the sake of meeeee!!! I hate myself!!! Why can't i justtt be normal???
The US doctor told me and my parents that recently i've showed allot of symthoms that my lupus are actinggg on and i have to be carefull of it.
And saidddd that, maybe i have to go for an opperation that costes allooooooooooooottt!
I don't mind if i die!
*GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR*
Okay, i need to be alone right now.
I'm crying for your information.